Next Detox……….The News

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We are all made of energy not matter.  I love the very thought that the cells of my body are alive.  A recent “happening” raised my awareness as to my sensitivity, connection to energy. I have started a Monday evening … Continue reading

Good Bye Hump Day…….Hello What If Wednesday

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Poor Wednesday.  It gets such a bad rap.  Hump day!  If you’ve googled it you know you can get anything from camels to images just this side of porn.  

Perhaps being a middle child myself I can relate to this bad rap for Wednesday, the middle day.  I find it interesting to have it said to me on several occasions “oh you’re a middle child, you don’t seem like one”.  Whatever that means I guess I have managed to change the programming on that one.  All the while, Wednesday continues to be stuck in the middle of the week, halfway from where people have come from (Monday morning) and still halfway to where they want to be……the weekend.  

A random thought came to me this morning while I assessed my celebration of one week into Sober In October……..what if…….what if I hadn’t paid attention to some subtle signs of my body sending to me about needing a liver detox.  “What if” I had stayed in that toxic relationship?  “What if” I stayed at that dead end job? “What if” I skipped out on this mornings workout?  I’m sure the many people of 911 ask themselves everyday…….”what if” I hadn’t slept in that morning.  

“What if” can be magical.  It can send you to a place of hope, a place of peace and the place where you can simply keep moving to well, the weekend, if that’s as big as your thinking can take you right now.

I say we revolutionize and free Wednesday from hump day and give it the magical strength that no other day can own……#WhatIfWednesday  what if fall

The Slippery Slope to Sober In October

Continuing on my Sober in October.  Ya know, I was home alone this evening and yes I actually entertained the idea of having a hot milk (I don’t drink dairy but we have this organic grass fed milk at the co-op that is soooooo good) and a splash of Bailey’s.  slipper slope

Spending a moment thinking about the purpose of these 31 days, it not only a liver detox (I actually imagined -visualized, my liver) but as well “what do we do when nobody’s watching” thing.  How many times we say “I’m trying to watch what I eat” then we have a cookie or some other “forbidden”.  Then…..the slipper slope.  “I’ll start again tomorrow”. It’s not the cookie or “forbidden” that is the real damage, it’s the dent in our willpower.

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Sober in October

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It’s all over the news: two drinks a day is a ok.  That’s if it’s alcohol cause if you’re consuming 2 fizzy drinks a day, well then, that’s a whole different story.

Then there’s the news about the value of resveratrol in wine.  Well, that along with my Italian heritage was all permission I needed to justify enjoying a glass of wine (or two) an evening.

Last October I decided to go coffee free for the month.  This was born out of the awareness that we have become a society where needing the jolt in the morning has become acceptable.  At the same time I found I was needing more of the kick yet enjoying it less.  I was the sort that a part of my night routine was to prepare my morning coffee maker.  My favorite was ground freshly and the timer set to go off precisely 10 minutes before my alarm.  I would lay in bed contemplate hitting a snooze button, then my senses would pick up the aroma of my fresh jolt waiting for me.

Drag myself down the stairs, barely awake, the brown liquid poured into my favorite mug.  Although it seemed like in an instant when I am certain it was more a gradual process that I was unaware of, I had an epiphany that I was needing this more than enjoying it.

May of this year I did a 5 day detox.  That in itself had a joke……”heck if I can’t have wine I may as well go to bed!”  Interesting how during those 5 days I would have THE BEST SLEEP.  I have done this program before and am well aware of the power of it.  This time around my results were very disappointing.  I was baffled and yes a tad frustrated.  My one daughter made a comment about it “being my age”!!!!  My age!  My age!  My whole life all needed to do is talk to my metabolism and it fires up!  I haven’t experienced a “weight problem” for 3o years.  Ah yes, I thought a bit more calmer……… my age.  This is very similar to when another daughter was a preteen; I reminded her that right now as a 11 year old, she can eat ice cream every day, BUT there will come a time when that will not serve you.  Between being in the process of, or right at the doorstep of menopause, there’s a lot of “stuff” going on.  My liver is working pretty darn hard right now.  Something needs to change!!!!

no wineThe same awareness that carried me to the doorstep of coffee free, is carrying me to Sober In October.  “Sober?  But mom you’re not a drunk” – 16 year old daughter.  Interesting, that society says it’s acceptable to have the couple of glasses a day.  WedMD says that one of the signs of alcohol abuse and/or dependency is that “You feel like you must drink just to get by”.  Being honest with ourselves is a huge first step:  I don’t need the glass of wine to get by BUT I do recognize that I need the glass of wine to relax.

In addition to supporting my liver with herbs and supplements, I am looking forward to input:

A recovering alcoholic to talk about dependencies.

A naturopath to share on what happens in the body (the liver) with daily exposure to alcohol

Strategies on how to relax at the end of busy days

In sharing my intention today with my naturopath, the last thing she said to me was that she was glad I was doing this.

So am I………………………………….

The Meaning of Success

success-11ffbt1Second chapter in and oh boy, Darren Hardy, you know how to ask the deep questions!!!  The last question you ask in Chapter 2  is up there with “what is the meaning of life”.

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In receiving “The Entrepreneur Rollercoaster” I decided that I would treat this as a workbook rather than a read from front to back and then, ya right, go back and do the worksheets.

Now I can’t blame those of you who want to do the front to back thing.  What can be more exciting than knowing how to conquer the rollercoaster.  To know what your feeling and experiencing is “normal”.  To be armed with tools and courage to just keep going is exhilarating.  

I have gone through and identified “the crabs” in my life, I can clearly state the times when I have felt most successful-tangible results of success, I know what a successful day looks like.  BUT,   for two days I have been stuck on answering “my definition of success”.  

After pondering, reflecting on the answer to this, I realize that it comes down to one thing!  Feeling.  Success is a feeling we get when we accomplish something/get something.  What’s interesting is that I experienced some underlying guilt surface around this.  Whoa, interesting that that s$#% is STILL there.  

In the past I would then try to self analyse where this came from, whom to blame, what experience in life gave me this burden to carry.  

This was a short lived visit to guilt this time around and I said….”screw it, success makes me feel good”  

Winning Trillium awards makes me feel good
Serving in a soup kitchen makes me feel good
Driving a vehicle I’ve dreamed of makes me feel good
Buying gifts for others makes me feel good
Receiving love from meaningful relationships makes me feel good
Losing 5 pesky pounds makes me feel good
Lifting a record weight in the gym makes me feel good
Enriching conversations makes me feel
Daydreaming in nature makes me feel good
A glass of niiiice red wine makes me feel good
Burning sage makes me feel good
Hugs make me feel good
Travelling makes me feel good
Donating old clothes makes me feel good
Cooking healthy food makes me feel good

Starting and finishing something makes me feel good………..and this post was on the top of my to do list………..I……..AM……..A……..SUCCESS!

Rather than what does success look like, I ask you (as I continue to ask myself) what does success FEEL like?

From Once Upon A Time to Happily Ever After

Once upon a time (I really do love how my life is unfolding like a fairytale) just a few months ago…. I was the kind of woman that was so far from this  as you could imagine. wake up Having lived in this vehicle (my body) for 50+ years I knew something was wrong. The only thing I felt when my feet hit the floor in the morning was pain; from my toes to my ears.(fibro, fibromyalgia, adrenal fatigue, fatigue) Sleepless nights from simply rolling over and being awaken with pain. My normal Sunday evening I fell asleep in tears wondering HOW, how am I going to have the energy to get through this week. Then Monday morning hiding under the covers, dreaming that the day would just skip over me.

My kids would comment on “where did the real mom go”. They didn’t like me “all twirly”. I remember the day I spoke with my naturopath, asking her about this pain in my foot. She held my hand, looked into my eyes and told me that was my exhaustion line. I cried. She knew what I was denying. There have been only two times in my life when God has thrown bricks so fervently at me to get my attention-this was the second situation. Trading hours for dollars was killing me.  After talking to several friends, I learned that many are living their worse nightmare. I knew something had to change. I knew I had to change. I knew I had hand it all over a higher power. …………..Happily Ever After

Say Yes to The Dress

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Graduation season has me reflecting on a story……… It’s kinda interesting the things that you NEED to know about in life aren’t taught.  Has anyone here learned about business let alone money management from their parents? Then there’s the “programming“, … Continue reading