Yesterday was Day 3 of the RESET cleanse/detox and I am making a public declaration, well I suppose it’s a confession……I cheated.

In coming clean with this last night and sharing it with my daughter her question was “whaaaat did you do?”

“I weighed myself” I confessed. She didn’t seem to think this was a big deal, but then again she hasn’t been around the block and back with the experience of the mind games we can play with our relationship with food, commitment, goals and our health as I have.

The experience that took me from being labeled as “the skinny active one” as a child, to personal disgust in myself with poor physical health and overweight as a young adult, back to skinny as a runner, onto 8 years of bulking up and leaning down, the physical commitment of 3 pregnancies and now journeying through the changes that the middle years bring. Talk about experience!

My sport of competitive bodybuilding food is your biggest tool. So is the scale. For the months and weeks of bulking then leaning down the right amount foods at all times is what will fuel your workouts. Workouts where your constantly moving forward. The scale and its importance appears on weigh in day. If your more than 1/2 a pound off, over, your placed in a different weight class. May not sound like a big deal but if you’ve been training and building for a middle weight and all of a sudden your over in your weight, your competing as a heavy weight. I’m sure you’ve seen and noticed the differences in different women and muscle mass!

During the 5 Day program one of my rules is to NOT weigh yourself until the 5 days are done. Due to our relationship with the scale and the tangible numbers that appear, it can be a make or break point.

Late in the day, I was 4 pounds down and other than fighting some sort of sore throat, feverish, headachy bug thing, I was feeling pretty good.

In comes, creeps, that little voice. “Damn, that’s great. It’s only three days and your near your goal with two to go”.

I could have, I really thought about……..something. *smack* *smack* Something, kinda treat like. Well sure it would have been healthy. Well, sure that would have been the intent.

Have you experienced this? Reward yourself with food? I like to call it licensing and to be honest with you, it is this licensing that has me doing the RESET. A summer full of it.

In starting day 4 I invite you to recognize any habits, awareness that you’ve received about yourself and your relationship with food.

-boredom?
-regularity in eating?
-planning your meals?
-licensing?